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[Oct. 4th, 2009|05:19 pm] |
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I don't understand why I like to pick fights with Angel. I don't know why I have to make him upset and make him feel bad about everything he says and does. And I don't understand why I can't stop fighting with him and making him feel like shit until he reaches rock bottom and says things I wish he would never say. I guess it's because only then do I realize how bad of a person I am. |
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[Sep. 9th, 2009|09:36 pm] |
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I think Angel is unintentionally ruining my college experience. Whenever I'm not with him, which is most of the time, I can't function properly. And when I do see him, all we do is fight. And it's not like the little fights we used to get in. Every time I see him the night begins with anger and ends in tears and I don't know if I can take it much longer. What's worse, is his problems have now become my problems. I can't stand watching him destroy himself just because we got in a fight, or because he can't see me. What's worse is his bad habits have started to rub off on me. For the past couple weeks I've seen myself drink alcohol and take drugs just because reality is too much to deal with. I think the smart decision would be to leave him, but I don't want to do that. What's worse, is even if I did want to, I wouldn't have the strength to. |
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[Sep. 5th, 2009|07:43 pm] |
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I love it here. Except for the coed bathrooms. Fuck coed bathrooms, seriously. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2008|08:18 pm] |
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I'm actually going to miss high school a little bit. I want this summer to be amazing, and I want to spend it with all of you. I love you guyzzzz. |
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[Aug. 6th, 2008|01:44 am] |
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I don't understand how everything went wrong so quickly. |
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[May. 24th, 2007|08:23 pm] |
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I wish I could sleep all day. |
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[Apr. 29th, 2007|11:31 am] |
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I want the future. Now! |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2007|09:25 pm] |
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So stressed! |
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